Faces look ugly when you're alone
Women seem wicked when you're unwanted
Streets are uneven when you're down
When you're strange
Faces come out of the rain
When you're strange
No one remembers your name
When you're strange
When you're strange
When you're strange
Not much as far as lyrics to a song, yet the song has been around since I was born, released in September of 1967. It had always been in the background as I listened to the radio while growing up, but peaked my interest in 1987 when the song was re-released by Echo & the Bunnymen for the movie Lost Boys. Jason Patric, Corey Haim and Kiefer Sutherland starred in this vampire flik and I watched it over and over again because, hey, Keifer was HOT and so was anything vampire related at that time.
But this song has been going through my head lately. There has been many discussions on 'how' the song came to be. Jim Morrison's drug induced depression, alcoholism, loneliness, feeling like one doesn't belong.
Wikki has an overview stating:
"According to its Allmusic review, the song "reflects the group's fascination with the theatrical music of European cabaret." The song is about alienation and being an outsider, and Jim Morrison may have addressed the song both to the hippie culture, to outsiders in general or to users of drugs such as LSD, or both. The song came about in early 1967 after guitarist Robby Krieger and a depressed Morrison had walked to the top of Laurel Canyon. Drummer John Densmore believes that the song was the manifestation of Morrison's "vulnerability"."
I see that in every walk of life, no matter the lifestyle. People not fitting in, being vulnerable or lonely, trying desperately to stand out or above the crowd by doing something that just makes me shake my head wondering why - but not really, cause I don't give a fuck at that time to question it. Artists sing about lost loves, broken hearts and yes, loneliness. Striking out against the norm.
But I'm getting all philosophical and shit and it's way too early in the day for that crap.
People are strange. And, what I find strange will be normal to you. But sometimes, it's the ugly that tends to make me twitch.
I just don't get it.
Actually, I do when I stop to think about who the person is, their situation, and then I reprimand myself that I'm not a knight in shining armour and feel the need to rescue them. Cause the pay sucks, and nobody I know wants to shine the damn armour for me so I look all pretty 'n shit, so I tossed the armour many years ago. I sure as hell am not ambitious enough to shine it myself. And horses, fuck that! They are expensive to feed and I enjoy spending money on shoes and boots.
So, I let the ugly drown. Most times. Probably cause I have better things to do than to be dragged down with the ugly. I've done it in the past, and no doubt will have a few moments more when I turn ugly. But when I do, that damn song pops in my head....and I go back to not giving a fuck. Cause I can be strange like that.
Somethings I find strange about people at times:
If someone is dropping, and they express frustration over a topic or especially a person, others obviously will support them. The ugly ones - they will berate the person, calling them names and pretty much be abusive in nature....yet those ugly ones will crow about how open and nice they are 10 seconds later. People are strange.
While a male dom is high-fived when he finds a submissive (or multiples) that will be fucked madly, or she's finally deep throated him, a female dom is a whore and what she does is wrong if she penetrates a male with a strap on, whether she chooses to be paid or not for that 'service'. That high school mentality still applies today. People are strange.
People who have been around for a long time, have taken the time to learn things, make mistakes, and feel confident in whatever they do will blast someone coming into the lifestyle or job all eager and shit and they make a mistake. The newbies are condemned. Was this something I missed in the training manuals of life? Instead of condemning or berating them, how about helping them out with lessons you learned and teaching them how to do it right? No? Sad. People are strange.
People will be told, don't do this because - yet they do it anyways. Then whine. Hello, were you not warned? Isn't that something teens do to rebel against their parents to try to gain their entry into adulthood? Aren't we passed that teen stage yet? People are strange.
People will bitch and moan about issues going on with their lives, yet they do nothing to fix them for themselves, or worse, expect someone else to fix them for them. Ok, occasionally, I'm strange cause that Easy Button from Staples is REALLY fucking appealing. But, I don't have one, so I try to keep my mouth shut and fix things myself, after I have vented to a select few. When I'm really angry...yeah, everyone knows. But after I calm down, I work to resolve the issue. There, it's done and handled. But some people avoid it like the plague, keeping themselves in the ugly. People are strange.
People who listen to rumours and not take the time to check out the facts for themselves. When I hear them, I tend to look at the person telling the juicy piece of gossip, why they might be spreading it and especially when they 'pump' me for stories. I tend to keep quiet, because if they are talking about someone else to me, I know for a fact that they will spread stuff about me as well (not that I care because I tend to be an open book to people). Yet, we continue to support the gossip train and then bitch when we hear someone talking about us? People are strange.
Why is it on dating sites, you read how nice and very open minded someone is on their profile, that when you politely tell them you are not interested, for whatever reason, they go all bat shit crazy on you with nasty replies because of a gentle rejection? When did nice and open minded become so limited when someone says no? The ugly sure as hell comes out strong...cause we just HAVE to rip then a new asshole (before they block us of course). People are strange.
Why is it that everyone else's opinion matters when people say they know what they must do in any situation when having to confront others on a matter. Those that genuinely don't know what to do, I have no issue having them ask for opinions or advice of a select few close by that know the parties. But wouldn't it be nice to ask the person in question directly for said help or explaining the issue to them? Confrontations can be intimidating, but having 200 different pieces of advice and delaying the situation and wondering what ifs as the problem is put off...doesn't that only exacerbate the stress levels even further? People are strange.
These are just random thoughts in my head at times. I don't dwell on them, but they are good for discussion fodder.
I'm sure there will be those that will tell me to blow it out my ear, assuming I'm talking about them JUST people I don't use little words to 'deflect' away, like some people, or many people.
People are strange that way, especially strangers since I have no idea who they are, let alone miraculously finding out that I am talking about them or pointing a finger their way. Yet, they will take offence to it and jump all over my ass by assuming I am directly referring to them. If I WAS referring to you, you would absolutely get a private direct message from me. Frankly, I don't give a shit how you 'perceive' the way I write. I'm not writing to appease some people, or most people, or just people....I write for myself and that's just how it is-I'm strange that way. So be it. People are strange. To me.
Put on her big girl panties.
(originally posted September 4, 2013)